Today I woke up thinking that everything was a dream, a nightmare, that none of this was real.
My best friend of 7 years Hailey O'Grady died in a car accident.
She was only 24.
Coming home from an Evanescence concert she pulled into the emergency lane to get a CD from her back seat, when a P Plater in a ute slammed into her car, killing her instantly. She never even saw it coming.
This girl brought so much light and laughter into the world. She made everyday worth living and lived it so well. She never cared what anyone thought of her and she got me through one of the toughest periods of my life. She gave me hope every day that things would get better. She forced me to always look for a silver lining. She always made me laugh.
She was my world for the longest time and now just like that she's taken from me far too soon.
The thing that gets me the most is the newspaper stories.
75th death on the roads in Victoria. To them she's just a number. To me, my world has stopped and I'm completely numb. I'm an empty shell of a person. I can't breathe, eat or move. I just am.
I miss her more than words can ever describe. She holds my heart and soul and makes me remember why I love life so much. I adore her I always will. The only thing that can describe her right now is E.E Cummings.
i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)
I love you Hailey O'Grady R.I.P
